My Voice's Whisper...

Monday, December 06, 2004

waiting for Heaven's Door To Open

think twice I Know How! just ask!6:37 AM

A Step Towards a Lost Sanctuary

Deep into the ages long, long ago , when all of the living creatures started to traverse this world, Nature cared and nurtured these beings. Like a mother, she fed all of her offsprings which paved the way to their living existence within years and centuries, until now. Those were the years when our young Earth became a heavenly sanctuary for the human and animal race. A home that is sacred and holy which was founded by the four pillars of the elements of nature. Nature created and furnished the silhouette of man, a paragon endowed with great intellect and sensitivity.
But as time flies rapidly it seens that a radical change is occuring. Men, despite his great wisdom didn't realize that his heart for nature is turning into a stone, which is now being suffered by their grandchildren and great grandchildren. They depleted her natural resources for the sake of their own intentions.
We are their great grandchildren and we are the ones who are suffering the consequences of what our forefathers did. It is now then our responsibility to put back our sanctuary, a realm of paradise which it was once before.
Being a responsible child of Nature, it is our task to straighten up the crooked attitude of our society. But before we can do it, let us begin first within ourselves and of course, with simple things. One example is proper waste disposal which develops our discipline. Thus, molding us into a well rounded person. Then, proceed to our environment. If our forefathers devastated our trees, then somehow, we could restore them. It may take a long period of time for them to be strong and sturdy, but at least they do exist.
This may be a small deed but will make a great difference in our society. Our generation must spearhead a change so that it will serve as a springboard for the next generation to pursue our great mission. A mission which may be accomplished after decades, but at least, it makes a one big step towards the prevention of a catastrophe. It will help ease the anger of our mother. And if it would not be stopped, her anger would burst into a raging fury which may wreak havoc we would later regret....

think twice I Know How! just ask!5:46 AM

Untitled

A rose as red as blood

Ere half the world unknown

Its petals, proliferating on a

golden rod

Bewitching beauty of life has shown

think twice I Know How! just ask!5:41 AM

Farewell

The sudden farewell of a gem made

me cry

And the stealthy tears rolled on

my cheeks

As the ember of fire penetrated

my identity

The poignant yearning to her

I seek...

think twice I Know How! just ask!5:38 AM

Pain

I was born without a silver spoon in my mouth... I lived in destitute since I was young. I can see the four corners of our house penetrated by the shadow of loneliness...
I can say that my life during my childhood days weren't good. I can feel that gloom inside me... and its hard...
Seeing your father in bed in excruciating pain awakens the pang in me... My mother, feeble though she was, tried her best to make a living and make both ends meet. These bled my heart, and I knew their tribulations though I was young.
"Tatay... I wanted to hug you..." I told him in my sweet voice as I went near him...
"No.." he said in his feeble voice "You can't... You might be contaminated and I can't forgive myself." He said as he coughed so hard it was paining me.
"But..." I said in a soft but protesting tone.
"Don't be hard headed darling.. You know that I am doing this... because I love you" he said, tossing to his side as he coughed again..
"Tatay... I love you too..." I said as I fought back tears. Instead of hugging him, I touched his feet, and this somehow relieved the yearning..

Then, the day that we all dreaded came... He breathed his last...

This was all too hard for us, my nanay, my elder sister and I. That room became darker as usual. Even we were grieving, we still tried to move on. Poverty is too much to bear, and this added to our discomfort. But even though we are in this status, we still had our education...

Once, when I walked home, my steps heavy, our relative called me..
"Aida! Come and join us in our lunch!" they said...
I walked to their home eagerly for the stabbing pain in my stomach made me uncomfortable. But even I can smell the sweet aroma of the food, I still can't eat... My thoughts lingered with my nanay and ate...
"Why is your food remaining untouched?" said my aunt.
"I don't know. I just can't eat" I said, shrugging my shoulder.
"Ah.. I know... Maybe it's better if we will pack this viand so that you may share it with Aling Mila and your ate." she said as she is setting it..
My face was enlighted with gladness and said, "Thank you! How kind hearted you are!"

I hurried home eager to share the lunch with my family. I was so excited I started to run.
'At last.. my home!' I said to myself as the sight of our house dawned on me..
I opened the door with a loud bang! I was catching my breath and was exhausted..
I called "Nanay!".... no one answered
"Nanay! Where are you? I brought you and ate something!" I called.. but no one answered... I bulged in the door and to my horror, I found her frail body lying on the floor. I gasped, and rushed towards her. I shook her, trying to wake her up, but failed. I listened to her heartbeat, wanting for a single pump that will revive my hope.. But desperation enveloped me, and of course, sadness.. She was dead...

I cried silently feeling my whole strength leaving me. My heart ached with anguish until I became numb... I didn't realize the salty tears running down my cheeks. I shivered even though their was no wind. I felt the chill inside run down to my spine..

Then suddenly, reality dawns on me..

We were left alone in the middle of darkness.....

think twice I Know How! just ask!1:23 AM